3.30.03 – a quandary:

option 1: assistant stage manage. good money, fun company, job’s in idaho where i want to spend my summer. work will not be terribly challenging or artistically interesting, however, the overall quality of the work will be first-rate. have to suck up the fact that the company is giving me a pretty significant demotion from last summer, as a result of office politics rather than me being incompetent. will have to be an assistant to someone i once had a summer fling with.

option 2: direct, stage manage and teach community classes for a young shakespeare company in new hampshire. earn $0 aside from room and board. do work that will push me outside of my comfort level, get me to try new things and discover what i’m capable of and what i want to do. runs the risk that the overall quality of the work will suck. have to be away from andy for at least six weeks. have to keep my day job for an extra month. risk being too poor to be able to move to chicago in the fall as planned.

which is why i haven’t been able to pull together a coherent thought for slithy tove in the past week. what to do: sell out for a carefree and profitable summer, or throw myself into the fire?